On This Day …

Dear Monkey,

Today I am 17 weeks and 5 days pregnant with you.  For anyone else, I am sure this seems very insignificant.  But for me, it ties you to your sisters in a very real and tangible way.  Why?  Because just over a year and a half ago – at 17 weeks and 5 days pregnant we were in for our first, and only, ultrasound with the girls.  It was there we discovered our stowaway – the reason for my huge belly :).   Watching that screen made it all so much more real … two little bodies wriggling around, limbs flailing and kicking, two little hearts beating. 

Thinking of the past causes me to pause today.  I have touched my belly a bit more, waited intentionally to feel you kick, and talked to you more than usual.  Because today you feel more “real”.  I remember how real your sisters were to us at this point, and I know you are the same.  A wonderful, squirmy little person just waiting to be let out.  It is both wonderful and terrifying.

Counting down the days until we meet you … just don’t make it anytime soon. 

Love your mom.



  1. Sally said

    Beautiful xo

  2. OM said

    You are in my thoughts and prayers. 🙂

  3. Sarah said

    Hi –
    I just came across your blog today and ended up reading every post. Your writing is beautiful and honest and compelling. After two miscarriages, my husband and I are getting ready to rejoin the TTC wagon, and I’m terrified. Your post entitled “Taking the Leap” really resonated with me, and I quoted you in a recent post. I linked back to you, of course… I hope you don’t mind.
    I’m thinking of you and Monkey, and it’s very nice to “meet” you –

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